Dreamer

I joined this forum(asmsi.org.ph) on March 15 2004.
I enjoyed chatting with new friends and posting my ideas, if I’m interested in certain topics.
Good thing about this website is, anyone can see who’s new in the website. I always checked out who’s new then, then I’ll send a message to them to make new friends. One time I was checking, I saw the name simple_shine26. I quickly checked her profile and then I saw her picture, "wow she’s pretty". But too bad she’s studying in Mindoro, too far from manila to see her in person. I got her YM ID, we chatted everyday and talked about anything under sun, listening to each others problems, giving advices. But by that time I still had a girlfriend, and she had a boyfriend… So we both respected each other’s status. We remained friends.

Time passed by and we got busy with our own lives. She graduated college while I worked hard for my promotion.

Sometime in March of 2005 I saw her online in YM, I talked to her just like before, I asked her what she’d been doing the past months. I found out that she’s here in Manila cause taking review classes for the CPA exam. I got her cell number to keep in contact to her.

I invited her to watch our game in the First Father Al’s Cup wherein we, the KOTA boys, were the defending champions. That was our first time we met in person. My first impression was right, whether in the chatroom or in person.

Also, at that time I was having problems with my girlfriend, "my ex" now, I don’t know, but her behavior rapidly changed. She always worked and went home late. I know cause we live close by. I remember one time, it was her birthday, supposedly we were going to celebrate it but she came home late. I asked her why, she said her colleagues throw her a party that she couldn’t say no to. I believed her but I had a strong gut feeling that something fishy is going on. To cut the story short, I found out she had another boyfriend…

It was very painful. I didn’t know what I was gonna do. I was devastated but I decided to let her go.. At that time Shine was one of the persons whose consoled me. She gave me advices and suggestions to make my pain subside.

We texted each other everyday, checking on each other. “Kumain ka na ba?”, “Kumusta araw mo”, those simple little words made our friendship grow. We become “best friends.” Eventually we hang out, go to mass together, malls etc.. One time we went to Baywalk to drink couple of bottles. We talked all night, talking about non sense, but we were happy. I asked her to take a walk with me. While we were walking, I took a deep breathe and I held her hand then I smiled at her. We walked holding hands like a couple. Then we went home riding a cab. We were still holding hands in the cab until we arrived at her dorm. We said good night and I went home with a smile on my face.

On "May 7, 2005" we went to the mall coz she wanted to buy clothes. We strolled the mall holding hands. We didn’t want our hands to be apart. After she bought her clothes. We grabbed a cup of coffee at Seattles Best. We were sitting like a couple coz we were hugging each other. Our cheeks stuck to each other and I didn’t know what happened. I felt like I was in heaven, I couldn’t still see it clearly until now. And at that time I told her that I loved her with all my heart. But she was afraid because she knows that I just broke up with my ex. She was afraid that I will only use her as a scape goat or “Panakip Butas.” But I told her that my love for her is true and I will leave the past for a new beginning and for a new love.

We sailed smoothly on our first few weeks. She took the board exams but unfortunately she didn’t make it. Her world stopped after that. I was there to comfort her and to give her encouragement. I told her “Don’t worry, you still have another chance.” But now she has to work to support herself and to pay those who helped her while she was reviewing. Now she’s working in Laguna. We see each other twice or thrice a month. Its very hard when we were apart. Although I want to see her everyday, its impossible. But I remember what she always says to me..”Wag ka magalala, hindi panghabambuhay tong sitwasyon natin. Konting tiis lang, magkakasama rin tayo.” I keep these words in my heart. Time will come and we will be together forever.

Mary Venus Nepomuceno, I love you very much.